InsaneJournal

New beginnings
I just deleted all my old entries. For some reason I couldn't stand to look at them anymore. They were useless, wordy, self-centered, crazy.

Instead, I have a new "welcome" post. I'll talk about things that are very important to me, things I love so much each could mortally wound me.

The first is Nepenthe. She is my baby California kingsnake. I've only had her since August 23, but somehow I feel incredible love for her. Once, two weeks ago, I came home from a long day and she was unconscious, dehydrated and overheated. I thought she was dead--she wasn't moving and she was draped across the terrarium with her head buried in the wood chips. When I touched her, she was soft and gummy. I thought I had killed her by forgetting something, by being careless. When she began to lethargically move again, ten minutes later, I felt like I was redeemed. It was a miracle that my beloved snake was alive and unharmed, that she had come back to me when I thought we could never recover. I realized then how important she was for my happiness, this little snake.