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Christopher Marlowe (christophem) wrote,
@ 2008-10-26 14:23:00

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Entry tags:	nepenthe

New beginnings
I just deleted all my old entries. For some reason I couldn't stand to look at them anymore. They were useless, wordy, self-centered, crazy.

Instead, I have a new "welcome" post. I'll talk about things that are very important to me, things I love so much each could mortally wound me.

The first is Nepenthe. She is my baby California kingsnake. I've only had her since August 23, but somehow I feel incredible love for her. Once, two weeks ago, I came home from a long day and she was unconscious, dehydrated and overheated. I thought she was dead--she wasn't moving and she was draped across the terrarium with her head buried in the wood chips. When I touched her, she was soft and gummy. I thought I had killed her by forgetting something, by being careless. When she began to lethargically move again, ten minutes later, I felt like I was redeemed. It was a miracle that my beloved snake was alive and unharmed, that she had come back to me when I thought we could never recover. I realized then how important she was for my happiness, this little snake.

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	sweetsorcery 2008-10-26 09:00 pm UTC (link)
	Aww. She's okay now? That's so good to know. I frequently consider clearing the online slate entirely. There's too much clutter in life, not to mention online. :) (Reply to this) (Thread)

christophem
2008-10-27 01:49 pm UTC (link)

Yes, she's okay now. At the time, though, I felt like I'd been stabbed. You know how you can love someone so much, when they get hurt you almost feel like you can feel the pain as well? But I've significantly reduced the number of daylight hours for her, and she's recovered.

Clutter is something I know all too well, especially online. It's so easy to write words, and even easier to delete them. I'm getting my typewriter repaired; I think it will be easier to write with something that I can't backspace on.

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	sweetsorcery 2008-10-27 05:41 pm UTC (link)
	That comment was, of course, meant to be a response to this one. Never mind. (Reply to this) (Parent)

sweetsorcery
2008-10-27 05:40 pm UTC (link)

You know how you can love someone so much, when they get hurt you almost feel like you can feel the pain as well?

I know that all too well, I'm sorry to say.

Loating of clutter is part of why I frequently consider taking fanfic offline, clearing out my journal, etc. At the moment, I'm in a Zen frame of mind both online and offline. I'm throwing out stuff left, right and centre.

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christophem
2008-10-28 09:51 am UTC (link)

Offline I always accumulate clutter, but it's almost reassuring, isn't it? Because clutter means you've lived long enough to actually outgrow things. But it does become a nuisance. I've only recently moved (over the summer) and I left a lot of junk behind. But online, years and years and years! But it's true then that it all tells a story, from the first fanfic you ever wrote and the first blog entry.

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